Growing up in a Christian home and being emotionally, physically, spiritually, and sexually abused by Christian parents, one a Deacon of the church and the other a member of the choir, left me confused and very angry. Not only was I angry at my parents and the world, I was angry at God. After all, isn’t God supposed to be our protector?
For over thirty years that anger fueled a hate and resentment that nearly destroyed me and my life. Did I have a right to be angry? Absolutely, however I was using that anger in the wrong way. I was using it to assassinate my mothers and stepfathers’ character and turn others away from God and the church. It was only when I was allowed to talk about my feelings; being angry with God, my parents, the church, and myself without being judged or told to just forgive, forget, and move on, or it happened along time ago move on with your life already, that I was able to start letting go of my anger and move into a place of acceptance.
Genesis 50:20 says - You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. I am grateful for God’s grace and forgiveness. Today I have turned that bitter anger and hate into compassion and love for others that have gone through the same suffering. I know that through all of my abuse, God was always right next to me weeping and protecting me from grave harm.
I want you to know that no matter what you have been through, there is hope and healing for you. There is a better life waiting for you. Jeremiah 29:11 says - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
For over thirty years that anger fueled a hate and resentment that nearly destroyed me and my life. Did I have a right to be angry? Absolutely, however I was using that anger in the wrong way. I was using it to assassinate my mothers and stepfathers’ character and turn others away from God and the church. It was only when I was allowed to talk about my feelings; being angry with God, my parents, the church, and myself without being judged or told to just forgive, forget, and move on, or it happened along time ago move on with your life already, that I was able to start letting go of my anger and move into a place of acceptance.
Genesis 50:20 says - You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. I am grateful for God’s grace and forgiveness. Today I have turned that bitter anger and hate into compassion and love for others that have gone through the same suffering. I know that through all of my abuse, God was always right next to me weeping and protecting me from grave harm.
I want you to know that no matter what you have been through, there is hope and healing for you. There is a better life waiting for you. Jeremiah 29:11 says - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
- Are you still harboring anger towards something or someone from your past?
- Are you now ready to release that anger and give it to God?
- What action steps will you take to release your anger?
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